I'm GUNNA!!

After a month of trying to figure out of I could financially afford it, and mentally handel being in Midtown Manhattan alone without knowing more than 1 other person in the City, I've made my reservations, and I'm off to the Big Apple for the Summer! I'm leaving May 15th, Starting work at Urban Outfitters in the Upper East Side on the 17th and and coming back the week before classes start up.

Joel and I had a long talk last week about relationships, and how people seem to change who they are or what they really want when they find someone who they think can play the role as "the one". We don't want to hurt feelings, and people stay in relationships much longer than they should, and eventually stop thinking about what they wanted in the first place. He pointed out that I have all these oppertunities to go out and do things (New York, New Zealand etc...), but I'm always letting someone hold me back. As much as that idea had been in the back of my mind, I didn't really hit me until he called me out on it. It wasn't so much that someone was holding me back, but that I was holding myself back and using a relatiosnhip for a reason to stay in this place that I've lived forever, but wanted to leave; hated, but loved all at the same time.

I had this oppertunity, but didn't want to leave in fear that my relationship wouldn't work out. Well.. After the talk with Joel... I thought "fuck, I'm 22 years old, I'm getting to the last point in my life where I Can think about me and only what I want." so after a week of emails, phone calls and IMs, I'm getting a SWEET deal and staying at my uncle's Hotel for the summer, learning to play guitar, going to the shore on my days off to hang out with Sarah, and working with JParty at UO.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO.... If anyone has the desire to come visit me in Manhattan this summer, let me know! Visitors will be welcomed with open arms!!

Wish me luck! :)